So many pictures of smiling faces, laughter, and moments of
joy fill my Instagram and Facebook accounts. From the outside looking in we
seem to be adjusting remarkably well. And we are. God is good. He continues to
gift our days with small treasures of delight.
I find myself taking more photos realizing that before tragedy struck
our family, I had become somewhat slothful in capturing our memories on film.
Not now. I want to seize every moment and never forget how we rebuilt our
crumbling lives. Every smile is a building stone—every bit of laughter a
footing.
However, there are snapshots of time that the public will
never see. The sobs and screams. The fears and falls. No one will see the messy
work ensuing behind the scenes, such as this morning when I fell to the kitchen
floor in a puddle of tears, sobs racking my body as I began to hyperventilate.
No one will hear the soft footsteps approaching as Haley knelt beside me and
wrapped me in her arms and soothed me with her gentle spirit. No one will see
the evenings Haden comes into my room with tears in his eyes worried because I
am not sleeping, or the times Haley crawls into my bed weeping. These are
episodes that no one wants to see or acknowledge, yet these events are just as
crucial to the healing process as the smiles and laughter. This is the
construction stage that is unpleasant and untidy. It is the phase we want to
overlook and avoid, but without it, we cannot continue to build. Without it, restoration will never occur.
These snapshots comprise our journey, every aspect of it,
the good, the bad, and the ugly. I treasure every moment, knowing that it is a
gift from God. I will praise Him even in the midst of the storm that threatens
my life and the sorrow that fills my soul. Furthermore, I will continue to capture our
flashes in time—all of them—either on film or in my mind knowing that through all
of these moments we are rebuilding our crumbling lives.
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